As all of you have known that I lost Loki on Oct 13, 2011 when I was in Borneo and Loki fought for his life alone in the vet... It was the most terrible things to happen in me... I can't forgive myself. I keep blaming myself and it never get enough... I know Loki doesn't want to see me so sad and desperate, but I just can't accept it... Loki came into my dreams several time. It feels so real. The amazing thing is when I woke up, I feel better seems like Loki was really there with me while I'm sleeping and fill the emptiness in me so when I woke up I feel complete and free. But that completeness doesn't last longer... I will keep remember about Loki last days and sad again... Till one day something unique happened!

I was on the street in the midnight. It was around 1 AM. And suddenly a cat came from no where. I saw that cat and unconsciously shouted quite load till the security heard me. "So CUTE!!! Looks like Loki... So CUTE!" but because it was too late at night so I was in a rush walked to my car and left that cat there. When I was about to start my car engine, the security came to my car brought that cat along and offer me if I want to pet the cat. OF COURSE I WANT IT SOOO BAD!!! I asked if that cat have any master. The security said no, it's the canteen cat. She has no one. Then I took her home and name her Arcadia!

Strangely, Arcadia was a street cat but she smells so good. Really good. Smells like heaven and the other odd thing is she doesn't scare to me at all. Seems like she has known me for her lifetime! And.... I feel Loki there... I feel like Arcadia was the reincarnation of Loki. Arcadia acts a lot like Loki. Even everyone who has met with Arcadia say the same! It's Loki! Loki is back. But I always try to tell myself that this is Arcadia, not Loki. They are the two different cat. Loki has passed away, now he's happy in heaven. Well, he will be happy if I'm not sad anymore, but as long as I still sad I think Loki keep watching on me. Then I have this thought, "Maybe Loki was in side Arcadia. Loki makes me love Arcadia. Loki sent me Arcadia to place the emptiness of the lost of Loki". Loki wants me to cheer again. By the time goes by, I can love Arcadia the way I love Loki. As the sadness fades away, so do the feel of Loki existence in Arcadia. That night before I feel full Arcadia when Loki's spirit is not there anymore, Loki came to my dream again. He slept in my arms just like he always did. And again it feels sooo REAL!!! It seems like Loki can rest in peace now because he knows that I'm okay now. I'm not desperate anymore... Loki sent Arcadia to bring back the happiness to me... Thank you my dearest Loki. I know, you know that I love you more than much! And my love for you will never end... You always live within my heart... Forever....